M currently bored, so bored that it s painfully lonely.I know the solution to my problem but i won t do it cuz i want it t be perfect with everything in order.except for my bf i dont have any friends,i feel like i ve projected so much negativity since he s the only person around.and i feel so bad about that.he s so precious.he s definitely enough t make me feel fullfilled about my life.but there s always more to what a human might want.a new vision.a lifestyle that i want.a spontaneouty that i wanna have.just existing.living.no phones.just laughs.and silly jokes.no politics.no overwhelming feelin of desperateness of the thousand unsolvable things that are takin a toll on u and mental health that make u have to accept that fucked up shit and move on and live with it.but tht is tbh not just makin me feel but really makin me paralysed not able to want or dream of doin anything cause whatever it is.i can t do it cuz of the government,my parents, the laws the mentality the ppl, security…..
Anyway it s suffocating.i hate it.so m waitin like i ve always been waiting until i perfected patience.for something to come, smthg great to happen, a great change. Me in a new country. A new start. Endless possibilities and opportunities…
